Ariffin asked if I want to be OGL or not... cos he think I can do it... I told him I'm not confident of this... I dunno... I'm still deciding, but I guess there's not much time to make a decision? What the heck. Y is it so tough 4 me to make a decision such as this? What actually held me back? honestly, there r sometimes qns that we ourselves r unsure of answering...

Okay, I'll see 1st, but I'm, afraid there's not much time 4 me to come to a decision.

Anywae, on a lighter note, I'm into jap anime! Bleach!!! :) Yes, I've been watching Bleach since the end of promos... Great show! I'm already at the 91th episode!! haha... better stop 4 now, cos there r things coming up & waiting 4 me to "chop" all of them up... A lvl CL... OP... I&R... Bio Olympiad... :/ Wateva..

See ya! I'll see if I'm able to come to a decision regarding OGL ...

YES!!! Finally I received my NYAA Silver badge after 1 year!!! Can u imagine, juz getting a badge like this can take a year?? Anywae, thanks, Mr Tan, my ex-sec sch tcher 4 taking the trouble to ask NYAA council regarding the badge... but, this issue has dragged 4 a year =_=""""

Anywae, talking abt this reminds me of OGL... should i apply or should i not?? should i apply or should i not?? should i apply or should i not?? Arrgh!!! I dunno yet, and ben told me application ends on sat... but I'm still deciding... I'm not sure if I should apply or not... It may be a simple decision to make, but... ... wateva.

I dunno if I shld continue doing my NYAA Gold... it's the last award.. perhaps I may not complete by this year... cos next yr is gna be busy 4 me... I doubt I'll have the time to complete :P

I'm very troubled... I noe this will happen somehow... It makes me feel sick... in a dilemma... Things like that... I dunno... Wateva...

Suddenly, I missed ALL my sec sch frenz! Really... How I wished I'll be together wif them again... Will it eva come true?

Anywae, I foresee that our class will never be the same again... 06S305... Somehow, even if 1 person is missing, the feeling's gone... I'll miss that feeling too...

This year does not go smoothly at all...

Everything's changed. I think I'm changed too... But I dun wish to change~

My all-time fave song... KELLY CLARKSON - A MOMENT LIKE THIS... dedicated to everyone else... u can work towards your goal & eventually achieve it... That's your moment... which is, A lvls... Let's us all work hard to achieve wat we want & carve out a path for our future! =)

If I told you it was all meant to be,
Would you believe me
Would you agree
It's almost that feeling that we met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here and now

[Chorus]A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming but till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

Repeat chorus

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For the moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Oh Oh like this
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Some people search forever, oh yeah yeah
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Oh like this

DOWN.

It is a DOWN.

Where is the UP?

Stupid _ _ _ _ _ _ _.

I dun wanna talk abt it. I have NO mood!

If tomorrow never comes...

I pray 4 the best. The BEST.

Wat i've been doing the past week... well, nth much. It's kinda boring, and unusual 4 school this wk.. cos there r NO lessons! however, to my dismay, i felt super bored & almost dying of boredom... Really, the Open hse is kinda boring to me, okay it's on 1 hand, somewat fun.. I almost fell asleep during the open hse, no, to be more specific, i slept 4 a while at the study area.. wateva, it seems weird to feel super tired when u've nth to do & there's no lesson or tests or exams, but it's kinda strange that i'm yawning & my eyes r gna close any moment..

Alrite, enough of those boredom.. When i read my PI & EOM that i've submitted as final drafts 4 PW todae, i juz spotted a spelling mistake in my PI!!! GOSH!!! Damn!!! I hope i won't be heavily penalised 4 that!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!! It's such an obvious mistake!!! Luckily, only 2 drafts r handed in, so i'm gna CHIONG 4 the remaining parts of the project!!! I hope to get band 2 at least... Okay, the next part, which is written report, is gna to be due by FRI, 20/10/06!!! I hope the WR is well-written & hopefully fulfils all the criteria *praying*.

Oh no! This week, we will noe the dreading results. These few days, though i'm slacking, i felt uptight most of the time. I may seem like nothing's gna happen, but deep inside, i'm super anxious. Will i do well? This qn appears in my mind 4 like thousand of times. I really dunno. I juz felt anxious, anxious & anxious -.- I hope i'll do well.

I'm exhausted. though i'm not doing anything.

This song 'Hero' by Mariah Carey is dedicated to Xiao Yun... I really hope she stays strong always... I noe it's hard to accept it, but u've to live on... U muz find the hero in u... the strength u need to carry on living your life & enrich it... A hero lies in u...

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

[Chorus]
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time

Repeat Chorus

Who can tell me wat to do???

I dunno how to approach this difficulty... I dunno how to face them... I dunno how to answer... Somehow, i juz feel like going back to those times.. but i'm forced to make a decision that can make or break me... Okay, it sounds a bit over exaggerating, but i really dunno how to answer them... This fri, they'll come to noe everything... by then, i'll not be able to face myself & will surely want to find a hole to hide in..

I noe it's useless to hide from them... Ppl, dun worry i did not do anything bad to anyone :p... Anywae, they'll surely noe it sooner or later...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I dunno lah~

FROM THE TAGBOARD:
<-=[K]=->: loser. stop being a hypocritical bullshit.

Hell ass. Calling me a "loser" & "hypocritical" will not change me or anything. So, dun bother to disturb me or the REAL Kenneth or my blog. 1st & foremost, I dun believe Ken will write such a thing, cos that's not his USUAL way of writing! Sickening imposter. Too free arr? I suggest studying the new Alkanes lecture notes! That'll take up some of the precious time.. Or i suggest, practising some Maths questions to reinforce your learning. It'll do u good, trust me.

Oh, 1 thing to say, Sorry, Kenneth! I didn't noe it wasn't u! ... GOSH! Really, I can't believe Y u could even write such thing! Anyway, sorry again! Idiot. Y muz i accuse someone wifout evidence? I was actually taken aback to think properly.

Okay, whoeva that poser is, i got nothing to say.

These days of "holidays" have left me deep in thought about things that happened in my life & wateva i've felt all these years. Perhaps Kenneth's comments impacted in some ways or another. I dunno how it can impact me, but i do fight back if i think it doesn't describe me or that wat i wrote gave one a wrong impression. Maybe i'm too serious or anything if i'm dealing wif wat ppl said of me, but that's a part of me.

For years in my life, i guess i've experienced more downs than ups. I'm not as fortunate to score as high as 250 for PSLE & enter a prestigious secondary school. A few months back, i'm not as fortunate to score like 10 pts or less for O lvls. (Btw, i only scored 14.) I've to make my stand clear: if i've the confidence in achieving something, i'll voice out. however, if i dun have that confidence, which i dun this year, so wat if my results prove a little something... but it does not show that i've wat it takes. really, i'm telling everyone from the bottom of my heart.

I'm dun need to be hypocritical at all. that serves no purpose. I noe that wateva i'm feeling now is a lack of confidence, really, wateva i'm expecting abt promos results r truly wat i think i might get, cos i've no confidence to achieve grades as high as the sky. That's all folks!

Todae quite a sian day... did lots of household chores... then watched High School Musical again!! haha... i'm quite addicted to the songs, super infectious. Anywae, i'm gna do a major restructuring to my room, cos i'm dissatisfied wif the condition of my room. maybe these few days, i'll do it? lol, see 1st. okay, did the 2nd blog game, esther tagged me, so yup.

1) single , taken or crushing? Ans: Single. Duh.

2) are u happy with ur life now? Ans : Errm.. i doubt so...

3) when u meet the right person , do u fall in love first? Ans: See if i've met that Ms Right 1st.

4)have u ever been heart broken?? Ans : No. I've never been in a relationship before.

5) Do you believe tt there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable? Ans: Err.. i won't believe in such a thing..

6)wld u ever take someone back if he/she cheats on u? Ans: NO WAY!!!

7)ever tok abt marriage to someone else? Ans: Duh~

8) Do u want childen? Ans: Yup.

9) How many? Ans : Depends on my financial ability 1st. 2 shld be the max ba.

10) Would u ever consider adoption? Ans: I dun think so...

11) If someone likes you now, what do you tink is the best way for him/ her to let you know his/ her feelings? Ans: Okay, that u can tell me directly, but i dunno how i'm gna respond.

12) Do you enjoy going into relationships? Ans: I've never been in one, so how i noe?? -_-"

13) Do you believe in love at first sight? Ans: Yes...

14) Do u believe that u can change someone? Ans: Yes, i do..

15) If you could married elsewhere, where would it be? Ans: Hmm.. somewhere romantic... Paris? or... the beach!

16) Do you give in easily when you're fighting? Ans: Hell NO!!!... sometimes see the situation 1st..

17) Do you have feeling for someone right now? Ans: Maybe... but i'm not sure if it's love...

18)Do you ever wished that you could have someone but you messed it up? Ans: No...

19) Have u ever broken a heart? Ans: Dont think so..

20)If one day your best friend falls in love with the gal/ guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do? Ans: Hmm.... .... ....

21)Are you missing anyone right now? Ans: Yup. My ex-classmates! They r a fun bunch to be with!

22) Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.. write their names below.. Dun feel like doing it... i'm not gna think of who... i'm not gna think anymore after promos... lol...

YES! The promos are brought to an end 4 me & some others!!! Wee!!! Too overjoyed! This calls 4 some celebration, haha... Todae, i spent the whole afternoon watching'HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL"!!! VERY NICE TO WATCH!! Perhaps i luv MUSICALS! Lol, really... Also, changed blogskin! :) My fave animal, turtle! haha..

Anywae, I think the papers r fine, except 4 geo :p GREAT! I can now enjoy 4 a while! Okay, cos of PW & A Lvl Chinese coming up, so it's not exactly the time to slack 4 long. WTH. i never study so hard 4 promos lah~ keep slacking all the day till my engine got started like on last mon. By then, I've to rush thru the work & trying to finish my revision on time. Okay, I admit that i'm quite unprepared 4 promos, honestly. Well, well, well, we shall see wat poor results i'm gna receive :P

Alrite, before i reveal wat i'm expecting from promos, i shall reveal wat i got 4 mid-yrs 1st...
1. H2 Maths - B
2. H2 Chem/H1 Cl - C
3. H2 Bio - D
4. H1 GP - S > E [cos tcher rounded off to 45 :x]
5. WORST: H1 Geo - S
Horrendous rite? No As, that sux. A fail, or to be exact, 2 fail. That's mid-yrs. Promos? Err... I'm, not expecting too much. I noe myself. I'm not gna expect anything. Shall tell my results next time =) Rite now, wat my expectations r...

1. H2 Chemistry
Section A free response is great! I think it's the easiest section out of all sections! really! but.. Section B structured sux, so yup. MCQ so-so. The paper is the easiest papers out of all subjects! in my opinion only...
Expected grade: B or C [55-69] > I dun feel like expecting too high, cos to prevent disappointment :)

2. H2 Maths
Errm... wat more can i say? It's relatively easier than bio, but i still think chem's better! The 1st few qns r fine but the last few qns - i juz write something down. Lol.
Expected grade: B or C [55-69]

3. H1 Chinese
I never study 4 it, so i'm pretty worried at 1st. P1 is fine, i wrote narrative, still my strongest one. P2, I juz try to understand, okay lah...
Expected grade: C or D [50-59] > Think can pass though..

4. H2 Biology
Okay, although bio may be slightly tough, but i still can't deny that H2 subjects r better than H1. really. i think essay is fine, structured i juz try to write something & i forgot to do a small part of a qn -.- MCQ will be super worse, cos i rush thru it.
Expected grade: C or D [50-59] > Biology is always the toughest H2 to get a B.

5. H1 General Paper
This paper is fine, esp P1. Phew, i chose one of the easiest questions. So, i think i'll pass P1. For P2, I think i've made plenty of mistakes. so yup. probably fail this P2. Overall, i feel that P1 will pull my marks up. I think can pass ba...
Expected grade: E [45-49] > I dun expect high marks, cos this is one of my weakest subjects..

6. H1 Geography
Err... A COMPLETE KILLER 4 me!! maybe not 4 others... anywae, it sux big-time! the essay is fine, cos i drew diagrams (shld get some marks 4 that) and part b, i wrote crap! the DRQ sux even more... Physical geo is relatively okay, the econ geo, i simply dunno wat to write?? Overall, I wrote lots of crap, crap & more crap!!! So, I REALLY expect myself to fail this bloody paper!! WATEVA..
Expected grade: U or S [<45]> Serious? Yes, I'm serious. I'm sure i'll fail!... but i hope i'll at least get a subpass!

yaya tagged me to do this...

*tagged victims have to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. specify the gender of the target. tag four victims to join in this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. if tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.

tagger: Hsiu Ya
next victims:Kia Ming, Valerie, Sis, Kai Hua
Target Gender:Female

Points of a perfect lover:
1) One who is able to put up wif my unpredictable mood.
2) One who does NOT smoke or drink. It puts me off.
3)One who noe wat i'm thinking even if i dun say anything.
4) Be there when I need her.
5) One who understands how i feel at times.
6) One who makes me happy & feel enjoyable when wif her.
7) ONE WHO GIVES ME BREATHING SPACE.
8) One who is caring.

Yes! Last paper tml! Can't wait to tell how i felt about the papers! Tell u more tmr!! haha...

Anyway, tmr is maths paper, which i fear the most!

So, i better practise, otherwise...

That's abt it for todae!

Okay, 4 now, I finished the 2 weakest subjects - H1 GP & geo!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally!!! Relieved...

Anywae, GEO SUX!!!

Cl, i'm not gna study. Forget it! I muz study all my H2. yes, BIO! CHEMISTRY!!! Maths...

Tell u more after promos... :P